I became retarded and she came back

Brother, welcome back. We got to

freaking talk, man.

This guy told me in our group, he said,

"I broke up with my wife and now my back

hurts." He got a back like a lot of

people have been getting injured.

But seriously, uh, a lot of people have

been getting real injured

and I'm like, "What the hell? What are

we doing here?" So, this guy, it's been

a year since he's had any kind of sex.

No touch of woman.

Well, there was one time where he had a

little bit of a touch. Oopsie. A little

slippage.

a little touch

to the balls. And he was telling me the

story and I said, "Dude," I said, "Be

honest with me. Did your back pain go

away when she uh touched your wiener?"

And he said, "Come to think about it."

Yeah. Yeah. And I was like, "There you

go, dude. That's all you need." And this

guy has been down in the dumps. He's

dealing with back pain. He got a

divorce. He's got children.

and he is just going through it.

But for some reason, this sick little

perverted thought got into his brain

that he needed to find himself. He

needed to give himself permission

to be who he really is. He needed to

overcome the trauma

of his father not giving him the

permission that he needed as a young boy

when in reality all this man needed was

to get a ball touched. That's it. That's

it. We were talking to him in the group

and you could see his voice. His voice

just got like, "Boys, let's go." like

before he was. First off, I don't know

if this is a common thing with most

dudes, but like we got to be better at

getting to the damn point of stories.

Okay? And I'm not saying like what I'm

doing right now is not getting to the

point, but some of these guys when they

tell you this is how they say it.

There's no there's no mirth. There's no

energy in their stories. It's all like

this.

So, uh, I

Well, I tried to ask her out.

Well, here's the thing.

That's like the the main way, guys.

Speak.

Oh my god.

So, you know, I was like, dude, get

freaking pumped.

Get freaking pumped, dude.

I when I can't stand that. I can't stand

when other guys are not able to

just just

put it in there, dude. Just come on.

I don't know if this is making sense.

It's a feeling. You know, that's the

thing about words. Words are often

corrosive. That's what Mishima said

about words. Words are corrosive. Words

are meant to cut.

Words are like they're very acidic. You

know,

that's why I think you when Jesus, you

think Jesus came to unite everyone and

stuff? No. He said, "I didn't come to

bring peace. I came with a sword." The

gospel was meant to cut the the law in

half. It was meant to erase all the

nonsense. He was set the people free,

divide them from the chains of that

talmudic law.

And now everyone these days is scared to

be who they are. You telling me this guy

dealing with all this problem, all this

therapy speak, all this therapy talk. I

need to find myself. I need to I need to

discover who I am. And I'm hearing this.

I'm like, me and the guys, man, Killy

and Fabian, we're we're in there. Mike

Noah. And we're like, this is some

horseshit.

This is absolute garbage. This guy's not

even telling the truth to himself. He's

been so corrupted by thought that he's

not able to see exactly what he needs to

do. And it was simply be a DJ for a

little bit. I said, "What do you really

want to do, man? You know, you've been

trying to be He's working out. He's like

he's like trying to like get his [ __ ]

together. He's already got his [ __ ]

together pretty much, but he's still

trying to get his [ __ ] together. It's

like, "How much can you get your [ __ ]

together, dude? What do you really want

to do?" We asked him.

What do you want to do? Tell me what you

want to do. Raymond James Castle

like in Fight Club. I don't know. I

don't know. I want to be a veterary.

I want to be a vet. All right. You're

going to be a vet starting in two weeks.

I'm going to kill you. All right.

Please,

dude. What do you want to do? What do

you want to freaking do, man?

That's what we were asking this

sagacious young gentleman. And so he's

talking to us and he's like, "You know

what? I just Well, to be honest, I want

to go out with the boys. I want to go

out and I want to get drunk." And we're

like this.

>> Yes.

Yes.

We're like, "Okay, good. Good. Keep

going." What? I want to go out. I want

to hit on girls. And this is the thing.

This is how sick this thing gets, dude.

This is how absolutely sickening this

thing gets. He said this.

He said, "I want to, you know, I want to

hit on girls." We're like, "Have you?"

Like, he keep in mind, he's been

celebrate for a year.

Thank you for punctuating that. A year.

No man wants to be celibate for a year.

He said, "I went out a few times and I

went on a few dates, but I went on these

dates and nothing happened." Like, it

just kind of fell apart. She kind of

ghosted me. She stopped talking to me

and then I just kind of went back to my

routine. I was worried about, you know,

making this and that happen, blah, blah,

blah. Sticking a routine, blah, blah,

blah. And we're like, dude, do you see

how deceptive your mind is

if you do not exercise your freedom,

then your mind will become a cage.

He tried a few times.

He's a free man. He's out there. He's

like the Monte Cristo just escaped

prison. The count of Monte Cristo just

climbing up out of there. I'm free. And

now he tries a few times but something

in him tells him some thought tells him

this this isn't really but he got

nothing. He actually had no win. No, he

didn't get what he wanted. So what did

he do? He found a convenient way

to tell himself I'm done now.

Let's go back to being a sad boy. Let's

go back to being someone that gives

oursel permission that seeks our man our

father's whatever grace.

Now he's back to square one. And we're

like, "Brother, we're like, brother,

this is not the way, man. This is not

the way. You just gave yourself an out,

but you haven't got any you didn't like

get any better for it.

And so we're talking, we're telling him

like, "Dude,

just cut the [ __ ] Cut the [ __ ]

and be a DJ for a while. Just be a DJ."

And what I mean by that, you know,

I know there's a lot of young guys on

here. Now, I'm not saying go shoot up

drugs. I'm not saying gamble your life

away. Okay?

What I mean by that is live.

Because if you're not going to live,

then when you're not living, what you'll

do is seek to make everything

boring.

Seriously, you'll just make everything

boring until

there's no reason for you to have any

kind of spirit left. You'll just be

boring as hell. And you'll see this show

up with how you introduce yourself to

other people, how you talk to other

people. This life is not set up for you

to be some perfect person. You already

are perfect. You don't need to try to

live and and play by someone else's

rules and and live a certain way. That's

all super gay, man. That doesn't do

anything for you.

So what really happens is when you're

passive like you get you get punished

for being passive in this life. You

really get punished. Life claps you for

being a passive individual

because it's not it's not natural. But

the way things are set up, it's so you

can be passive. Kind of slide under the

radar. Don't have to show yourself.

Don't have to face embarrassment.

rejection,

cringe, which also means that you don't

get presented the same opportunities as

the people that expose himself.

So, this guy though, you know, he had

been very passive in his relationship.

And I I was asking cuz I wanted to I

wanted to get through to this guy, man.

I I don't want him to join the group and

just, hey, hey, how you doing? Hey, nice

to meet you guys. Bl. All right. See

you. It's like, no, dude. Like, you're

here for a reason. Let's figure this

[ __ ] out.

I said, "Did you break up with your girl

ever?" He's like, "Yeah, twice."

And then they tried to go to couples

therapy. Now, couples therapy, I don't

know what you guys your take on this,

but here's mine.

Imagine

paying a therapist,

which is literally like paying um

someone to cuck you and your wife. Will

you sit in this chair? Look at the hotel

cuck chair. Is I don't know what a

therapist could also sit there.

A couple's therapy. You on this couch,

there's the cuck.

Perhaps you're in the cuck chair.

Anyway, the it's a it's really cucked. I

mean, you're gonna pay someone to tell

you how you should be in your

relationship.

How passive can you be in this life?

And if you think for a second that this

is normal, dude, wrong. If you do think,

however, that society wants you to think

this is normal, bingo. Congratulations.

Come up to the front for your prize.

Seriously, they got everyone thinking

that these things are normal. That it's

normal. It's normal to go to couples

therapy.

Why is that normal?

This is just it would never be normal.

As soon as you sign for couples therapy,

you tell your woman, "I don't have all

the answers."

No woman wants to be with a guy that

doesn't have all the answers. Obviously,

you don't have all the answers, buddy.

But at least you got God. Oh, but you

don't believe in God. Oh, okay, great.

Well, uh, do you still have all the

answers? At least at least act like

you're going to figure this [ __ ] out.

Because what is she going to do? She's

like, we got to go to a couple's

therapy. This guy's done. This guy's

done.

How could he ever How could she ever

love? I just don't It doesn't work, man.

It doesn't work. It's too late. At that

point, it's got to be too late.

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but this one's this one's nice.

He broke up with her, then he went back

with he gave her a second chance. Again,

passive. When your girl says, "We needed

to take a break." You say, "Okay, this

is permanent vacation. There are no

breaks." You don't take a break.

Dude, no guy wants to take a break

unless he's gonna go out there and get

some some other chicks. But no, there's

no way. As soon as you start betraying

yourself to appease other people,

checkmate.

Checkmate, man. Oh, maybe. Yeah, it is

checkmate. As soon as you start that

[ __ ] it's over. And that's what

passivity

gets you is you you acquies, you abide,

you suffer fools too long just because

you don't have the nuts to say no, I'm

not going to because you've been so so

accustomed and told in this life to have

your little routine.

Avoid the risk. Keep the peace.

Don't stir the pot. No, man. I'm telling

you, you know, I have this theory.

I have this theory kind of brewing up.

Well, first off, everyone wants their

minds to be

whole. Everyone wants to be solid

mentally, intelligently.

They, you know, we seek out peace,

meditation, get your thoughts together.

We we want our minds to be at peace all

the time.

People take drugs so that they don't

have to have depression, so that they

don't have to feel the the depths of

sorrow that humanity has to deal with.

They don't want to feel the despair.

People go to therapists so other people

can tell them how to think.

But the entire time, dude, the entire

time

is that uniformity of thought is a

disease. It is a disease that we've been

lied about that we need to have

everything in order, everything perfect

in here. It's wrong. It's absolutely

wrong.

Uniformity is the devil's playground.

You know why? Because in uniformity,

evil works underneath. Look at the most

basic ass people.

They are like worried about the most

dumbest [ __ ] Everyone that has like the

the most clean women, mothers,

the most orderly households all have

this underlying

they have this like underlying what's

the right word here?

It's not death, but it is it's like

there's a there's a bitterness. There's

a they're hiding from something. They

try to clean away the depression and

despair. They try to clean away the

unhappiness and unfulfillment in their

life. They put it away neatly. Be our

guest. Be our guest. Put our service to

the test. Just putting everything away.

Pots and pans.

Hey, just dishes always must be done.

Vacuum always must be done. Oh, look. A

little mud.

It's like, dude, you don't get to do

that.

And here's what I ultimately came to

is that

if you look at the story of Satan,

Lucifer,

Lucifer was

the most beautiful angel. I might be

wrong on this, but I'm pretty sure I'm

not. He was the most beautiful. He was

the smartest. He was the orchestrator of

music, okay? Like he was really a

beautiful angel dude.

And he like he was jealous of God.

That's very interesting.

Why? Why?

Well, look around us, man. Look at this

big old ugly tree.

Look at this cold weather, man. Nature

nashes just nashes its teeth at us. It

just it we are a part of it, you know?

We're part of the creation. But

beauty, uniformity

ultimately is pretty much the opposite

of what nature is.

Nature is brutal, man. Nature is like

brutal chaos.

It's not It's not put together. It's not

clean. There's filth. There's mold.

There's muck. There's dirt.

And there's beauty inside of that all.

It gives way to more life. But I believe

truly that

when you try to have this this

perfection, when you try to live to the

perfection instead of dealing with those

maybe what is dark, maybe what is

ultimately human,

when you try to sweep that under the

rug,

you never discover who you really are.

And that's why I say go be a DJ for a

while, man.

Don't give yourself a way out either.

Don't give yourself self a way out just

because you know it's not easy. It's

never going to be easy. Again, this

thing is not supposed to. But that's

where you're going to discover

everything that you need to discover

going forward. You have to deal with

those those

weird ass feelings, you know, weird ass

feelings and emotions. You got to

discover that all. And then you got to

find a way

to not let them kill you and rise above

them and get them in order and and say,

"You know what? I can handle this."

Well, and maybe I might find some gold

in there.

But no one wants to do that. Most people

don't want to do that. And you sound

crazy. You sound absolutely insane. But

again, people got way too comfortable.

People got way too comfortable living

with routines, constant need for

security, expediency, which kills the

soul, a constant need to know.

But again,

I believe that they we do this because

we're not exercising our freedom. And so

the way that our minds cope is that we

we create a prison of our mind. And the

only way out is to [ __ ] max your way

through, man. Ride the tiger, baby. I'm

serious. That's the only way out.

Also feel like that's why there's

generally a lack of hype. There's

generally, I don't know if you guys know

this again, I told you I talked to so

many guys, but there's generally a lack

of hype among men. Like a real a real

lust for life, a real, you know, hearty

yes for life. And

I believe the really the well has been

poison, man. Like the well has been

poisoned, brother.

Everything became

physical. Everything became tangible.

Everything became real.

The spirit was pierced. It was pierced

with science.

Everything was seen. Everything just

cut, picked apart, seen through the

little scrying glass that we have. This

orb where all a bunch of little wizards

looking, peering into everything.

Everything became so real that our need

for stories

was gone. What need do you have for myth

legend?

Like even even uh all when you could

just pick apart every little thing. How

freaking crazy is that, dude? Like I if

there's one thing that I never I just I

want to make sure that I always hold on

to which is the key to the [ __ ] maxing

philosophy is you keep

the childlike wonder. You keep a part of

you because many of us have been kids

longer than we've been adults but

somewhere along the way they got all

these thoughts into our head. All of

this corruption to make us think

that's it. think to make us think that

we need to behave in certain ways

that we need to do like a a certain way

to live.

It became too real, man. And we

ultimately got rid of the stories. Wow.

How convenient. How convenient to

control humanity when you realize

that humanity is run by stories. But if

you take away all of their stories and

the meaningful ones especially that they

will simply lose themsel and consume

more [ __ ]

That's like

that's 200 IQ.

Is that not how you control people? I

think so. I think so. And so back to

words being corrosive or you know back

to one other thing is that's why you

must have a period of degening. That's

why you must go downward man. You must

you must experience losing losing the

job firing your therapist saying adios

to a girl you're not really crazy about.

Doing a 360 and moon walking out of

there saying bye to friends. See you.

Get uncomfortable. feel the pain. Stop

sweeping under the rug. It'll do nasty

things to your psyche and your

self-confidence when you don't go

through any of that because now you're

just saying, "I must do things because

this is how it's supposed to be."

Supposed to be to who? Supposed to be to

who? Even when we talk now, we don't say

things that amuse us. We don't say

things that, "Oh, that's funny to me.

I'm not trying to make other people

laugh. That's funny to me. I'm going to

share that [ __ ] Oh, that's an

interesting story, philosophy, passion

to me. I don't need to share that [ __ ]

to get a reaction. I share it because I

want to, because I like it.

And so many guys, there's a lid. There's

a lid on the spirit. There's a there's a

mouthpiece on the dog that really is a

rabbi infested dog, but now it's got a

mouthpiece, so you can't even talk. So,

you're neutered and you're gay. And

there's only a way to break out of that.

I said, "No, I'm not going to live like

this, dude. I'm not gonna live like

this. I'm not gonna I'm not gonna live

my life with all these limitations."

But in order, you must act out your

freedom.

You have to act out your freedom.

And you never have to explain yourself.

There's this is something that

has just made sense to me lately is

never explain yourself. Never explain.

Okay. If you're in court, you might have

to explain yourself.

Okay. Well, you're not in court. You're

in your you're in your daily life taking

a [ __ ] waking up from bed, going about

your day. Stop explaining yourself.

Don't explain yourself to your woman.

Don't explain yourself to anybody.

Anyone who like why is it that you have

this thought? Why is it that you find

that funny? Why is it that you have this

view on the world? Don't explain

yourself.

Explaining yourself always

weakens you. It It just tears you down.

One of the greatest way I'm telling you

I'm telling you this is this is 100%

true.

Notice how people go on Joe Rogan.

People that go on Joe Rogan are often on

the descent. I'm telling you, there's

this like craving amongst people to

rise. They look at people that rise

really fast and they say, "Oo, ah, I

want that like a rocket ship going into

the night sky. I want that.

I want that big raise. I want that

praise, that promotion." Dude, you don't

want to rise too fast. I'm telling you,

you don't want to rise too fast. A good

example is look at the Joe Rogan. People

go on there, take uh Jordan Peterson,

goes on Joe Rogan, starts talking,

starts yapping, starts then he starts

going on multiple podcasts, starts

talking about politics. Dude, you're a

psychologist. Stick to the psychology.

You had some good insights. You had some

real some merit there. Stick to what

you're doing. No. Wants to start yapping

about carnivore and his daughter wants

to come up and now go over here and

start yapping. You know, go to bed,

woman. Go to bed. Go. It's your past

your bedtime. Get in bed. Stop going

over to Andrew Tate's house.

You start they start talking too much.

They see get prodded with sticks. A

podcast is like someone proddding you

with a stick. What is this? What is

Dude, you're explaining. You're

explaining to the world. No, dude. Stop

extending yourself so far. Look at what

happened to Tate. Look at what happened

to him. Blows up. Now people can't even

take him serious. Oh, I'm the best at

this. I'm the best at this crypto.

Overreach. Overreach. So many time and

time again where they kill the story.

They kill

who is this person because all great

stories are built on who is

this person?

And and people just willingly give away

give away it all explaining making

excuse. And the moment that someone

disagrees with you, it could be on the

stupidest subject such as what your diet

should be, they start riding you off.

They start thinking that they got you

figured out. The moment that you explain

to your woman every little action, well,

your motivation, you just she's just,

"Okay, I got this guy figured out." They

start bitching up. Time for therapy,

baby. Will you come? You're like, "All

right, I guess we need therapy now. If

we're really going to work this out,

maybe some other dude could tell us how

to be together. It's a bunch of

[ __ ] Where's your balls, man?

Where's the spirit? That's what I'm

saying.

So, you got to be comfortable with like

don't be the the perfection.

Don't just show the perfection. Show the

sinner, man. Show the sinner. That's

what Christ was there for. The sinner.

Christ came down to defeat sin. To say,

"Hey, wait up.

None of you are perfect.

None. You guys, you can't be perfect.

You don't got to sacrifice any more

goats or pigs or follow this Talmudic

law.

I've defeated sin. I've defeated death.

Death has lost its sting.

Death has lost its thing. Amen, brother.

Hey, if we live, we live. But if we die,

we have also lived. And death is but a

portal. It's just a portal for more

life. And I'm telling you guys, everyone

wants to be the perfect, but no one

wants to be sinner. No one wants to be

the sinner.

No one wants to go out there and figure

out, okay, this is life. This is what

I've been thrown into.

Let me not run away and cower in fear.

Let me embrace this, man. Let me embrace

this.

Maybe

maybe that old story of the devil being

the most beautiful one and God kind of

casting him out.

Maybe he knew that humanity would

ultimately fall. You know, like people

always have this this qualm

with this story like why God knew God.

Yeah, maybe he did know. Maybe he did

know, dude. Maybe humanity is just the

story of Job and God's like, "Yes, this

is my creation. This is my beloved. Test

him all you want. He'll come right back

to me." Maybe that's ultimately the

story of humanity.

You guys fell. I knew that was going to

happen. You're going to come back to me.

You're going to go downwards into hell

and then come back to me. You're going

to go into the filth because in filth it

shall be found. That's beautiful. That's

how you know that you have that free

will. Do whatever you want. Suffer. And

all of us are like little cockroaches

these days trying to hide. Trying to

hide from the suffering. But that's

where you find God, man. In the

suffering.

That's where you find how he made you,

how perfect he made you. It's a

beautiful thing.

So, in order to get back

all these ailments, all of these plagues

of the mind, dude, you got to [ __ ]

max. You got to [ __ ] max your way

through. Chew glass, breathe smoke.

There's no other way. And so many guys

are paying the price because they've

accepted the lie

that this is what's most important,

right? They've accepted that that this

is what's most important.

We had a guy Jake in our group that

said, "It's interesting to think that

art, a piece of art that inspires you is

more compelling and it does more for

your soul than some like some words."

And I I was like, "That makes so much

sense because back to words being

corrosive, words are not meant to

always inspire. They're meant to cut.

They're meant to free you from the

chains, from the illusions, dispel all

the the illusions you have in your head.

That's what words are for. It's meant to

cut you away out of slavery.

So try stop trying to inspire yourself

through words, man. Stop trying to say a

certain mantra or affirmation or look to

someone else to tell you how to live.

Just start living. All right, I think

that's it, man. I'm getting freaking

pumped. It's almost spring. Hang in

there. Spring's coming. I can smell it.

Come talk with us in the group and I'll

see you soon. Peace.