Clive Wearing Living Without Memory

you know how we got here no you don't

remember sitting down no I reckon we've

been here about 10 minutes at least

noledge man as I started working now and

all I've seen the whole time I've been

seeing in is that and do you feel

absolutely

that's abolutely normal no completely

and completely confused confused yes

we've never eaten anything never taste

anything never touched anything smells

what right you asse your alive but you

are apparently yes but i' like to know

what the hell's been going

on Clyde was a an outstanding religion

he would take his work very very

seriously at the same time he loved

music so much that he just really threw

himself into it totally flive was a

musician of enormous Integrity he was

the world's expert on on lassus one of

the three four great composers of of the

Renaissance and he also worked a great

deal in contemporary music and was

chorus Master of the lon syona which is

Europe's foremost group music flows out

of him whether he's singing or playing

or

conducted Clive wearing through a cruel

Twist of Fortune shows us how

fundamental Consciousness and memory are

to our

lives

surash I don't know you not seen me

before no this is the first time

you pleas me little

bit nobody else I care

about thank

you so how are you feeling this morning

I'm conscious with the first time it's

the first time I've seen anybody not

been conscious before no I've been here

before this morning I haven't seen you

before no you haven't no I've not seen

anything at all before been completely

blind the whole time no taste at all

this is the first taste I've had that's

the first coffee you've had yes cheers

cheers and how are you seeing things

absolutely normally the first time Colo

yes I've never seen anything the whole

time I've been ill no black and white

nothing do you remember me arriving

no I don't remember any arrivals I don't

remember writing any of that nothing

nothing to do with me consciously me

unconscious writing what are you doing

here well I didn't have pres P patience

but I mean that's the first one time

I've seen any cars

is it yes you remember starting the game

yeah it all started with a headache

Clive came home one day and said he had

a very bad headache the headache didn't

lift it didn't respond to analgesics by

the fourth day he developed quite a high

fever and on the evening of the fourth

day for a little while he forgot his

daughter's name by the fifth day he was

very Delirious C suffered from viral in

keyis which has led to the damage of the

left and the right temporal loes plus a

good portion of the left frontal loob

and the temporal loes contain a

structure called the hippocampus which

we know is implicated in memory function

and in Clive it has almost certainly

been completely destroyed in both sides

of its

brain it's this that is primarily

responsible for his severe memory

impairment in addition the damage to his

frontal loes also causes a number of

additional memory problems which are

manifest mostly in terms of him

repeating himself a lot and and

generally showing um emotional highly

emotional Behavior Liv's world now

consists of a moment with no past to

Anchor it and no future to look ahead to

it is a blinkered moment he sees what is

right in front of him but as soon as

that information hits the brain it fades

nothing makes an impression nothing

registers everything goes in perfectly

well because he has all his faculties

his intellect is virtually intact and he

perceives his world as you or I do but

as soon as he's perceived it and looked

away it's gone for him so it's a moment

to moment Consciousness as it were of a

Time vacuum and everything before that

moment is completely void and he feels

as if he's Awakening aresh the whole

time

beautiful first time the first person

seen nice to meet you how long has it

been it's been about 2 and a half years

now maybe one night 2 and a half years

long night anything till now not even

anything before this game I given the

impression of being con not true he

always thinks he's been awake for about

2 minutes and that's why he looks at his

watch all the time to record it to

record the fact ah I've woken up I'm

this is an important event therefore I

will write it down in my diary so he

writes 1154 a.m. I am now completely

awake for the first time and he

underlines first time patience begins

because he's always playing

patience

and the whole diary every page is a

succession of entries saying almost the

same thing a first awakeness and when he

goes back and looks at his own entries

he doesn't acknowledge that they are

genuine he says he knows it's his

handwriting but as far as he's concerned

he was unconscious when he wrote them so

he he quite often he'll he'll score out

what he's written before and so his life

is an Ever repeating moment of first

Awakening the strongest thing in his

life I believe and his Diaries bear that

out is his love for me and that's

absolutely raw and each time I walk into

that room it is as if it's the first

time he's seen me for years good

Heavens well

hello you surprised to see me the first

time I've SE anybody at all first person

you have not seen me before this morning

no I have been here

so how are you feeling this morning I'm

conscious with the first time it's the

first time I've seen anybody dra not

been conscious before I've been here

before this I haven't seen you before no

you haven't no I've not seen anything at

all before been completely blind the

whole time don't remember me arriving at

all no no I didn't remember that you

having at all no I do at all but you

know who I

am or do you kiss all women like

that know I love you I don't kiss any

yes I do know I do know you've written

it all over your diary

look I bet you if I look to see what

you've written Haven mentioned me on

that

page you've mentioned me on this

page my first thought I adore Deborah

for eternity that's right people's

entries in the diary are rubbish what

does that mean no idea did you write

that I've no conscious conscious no they

sh me now for the first time but it's is

it your handwriting yes do but I know

nothing about it at all so how do you

think it got there I don't I presume the

doctors don't know but you must no I

haven't who's listen to me please let

and say when I say no I mean exactly

that haven't seen the book at all till

now no I'm all said no that mean that

means I haven't seen it I have no

knowledge of it at all that's all

there's no knowledge of that book all

it's entirely new to

me just use your intelligence then let

type of comment with is intelligence but

you put who would put that if no no no I

Haven say use intelligence I Haven fny

well use your intelligence C

gets extraordinarily angry and who

wouldn't CU here you're not dealing with

somebody who is demented who is

oblivious who is gar you are dealing

with a perfectly Lucid highly

intelligent man who has been robbed of

knowledge of his own life life and he

feels deeply humiliated to be put in

that position very very frustrated that

he can't grasp what's wrong with him

because even as you're telling him he's

forgetting the previous

sentence a form of memory which probably